What the French toast
This is one of my favorite commercials.
I have been quoting it at random times throughout the last couple of weeks.
I wish that I could chew Orbit gum and it would give me not just a clean mouth, but clean thoughts.
I had overwhelming “I’m such a horrible mom!” thoughts this evening.
Tomorrow are the Valentine’s parties at school. I thought ahead enough to have the girls make their valentine’s this year. They put them together during the snow day on Wednesday. I didn’t think ahead enough to have them do their boxes/bags. I thought we had bags left over from last year.
I thought wrong.
I pulled it off. Found plain red bags from Christmas, gave the girls heart cut-outs to glue one. Put their names on with stickers. They turned out cute.
But not cute enough for the self-loathing to completely dwindle away to non-existence.
Something I have had a lot of trouble with since becoming a mom.
For every one uplifting thought I have, 10 self-esteem bashing thoughts replace it.
Orbitz gum might not be able to help me, but I know someone who can.
I just need to take a step in His direction.
Dear Vron,
All Mommies think this way. I locked Kia Ayn in the car not once but twice….I promised myself by the time she was ten I would have everything she needed in the diaper bag. She broke her leg and two years later broke the other one. My guilt however, runs much deeper and my behavior cannot be erased. From the Ya-Ya Sisterhood,”I may have had a drink in my hand, but I was a Damn Good Mother.”
A child’s love is unconditional, you were made to be one from long ago. They will not remember you used christmas bags, only the fun times they had with mommy. Just relax, let it go and have fun every minute you are with them. Time is fleeting. Kia has absolved me of all my faults and we are closer today than ever.
I Love you and the kids and Bry(he,s a great Dad and I bet he never doubts that)
Auntie Ei Love the commercial, but please change yr wallpaper color-hard to read. And guilt is a wasted emotion
P.S. When they go to their therapist’s It’s all Mom’s fault anyway.
As you saw from my post yesterday, we’re thinking along the same lines.
I did manage to scrape together Valentine’s goodie bags, but then felt badly b/c it was all candy. Should’ve at least put in a granola bar or a box of raisins or something semi-healthy. I’m sure all the other moms hate me now!