Above all else, guard your heart,

for it is the wellspring of life.

Proverbs 4:23

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People choose to show emotions or hide them.

Regardless of what people do with them, emotions happen.

God has emotions and we were created in His image.

It makes sense that we would have them also.

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“The Lord was grieved that he had made man on the earth and his heart was filled with pain.”

Genesis 6:6

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“I am a woman who is deeply troubled; I was pouring out my soul to the Lord.”

Hannah in 1 Samuel 1:15

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“Be angry and do not sin.”

Paul in Ephesians 4:26

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It’s okay to have emotions.

They are in the Bible and there is no rebuke for them.

Some emotions move us towards God and people.

These are constructive feelings.

Conversely, other emotions isolate us from God and people.

Those are destructive.

There are no right or wrong emotions.

Feelings should be examined and reflected upon to get to the core of what they are and why they are.

What are the motives behind them?

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I have this association that heartache of any type is bad.

I steer away from it.

I bend over backwards to eliminate the threat of it.

I hide my emotions more often than not.

Trained myself not to go there.

Not to let the pain in or out.

Though it would burst forth from me anyway.

In the form of anger, bitterness and impatience.

Usually directed towards people who did not deserve it.

My husband.

My children.

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I have very few relationships where I fully let my guard down.

One very important relationship, where I did share openly and honestly in all matters of my heart, has abruptly ended.

My heart ached and I wanted to do anything and everything to get the relationship back.

At one point, I stopped and examined my heart and my motives.

I found something I did not like.

Something that I had never noticed previously.

I was depending on the relationship more than I was depending on Jesus.

I prayed for closure and repentance.

I prayed for my broken heart and my former friends heart to be healed.

I believe the Lord listened and answered my prayers.

At least on my end.

I realized that I had choices I needed to make.

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I’m going to choose not to isolate and distance myself from God.

I’m going to choose to remain open and honest and lean on friends and fellow brothers and sisters in Christ.

I’m choosing a soft heart over a bitter heart.

There is no joy in a life that feels like it has no choice.

I choose to feel.

I choose to share those emotions.

I choose to believe that Jesus is my Lord and Savior.

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It’s okay to feel pain.

I need to absorb it, reflect on it and grow from it.

Grow closer to Him.

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