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You know that feeling when you have so much emotion coursing through every part of your body?
Where you feel like you just might implode if it doesn’t find a way out?
All the sadness, frustration and anger’s only way to escape is through a flood of tears.
And words just don’t seem to be able to describe why you are feeling this way.
You just know that you are and that it sucks.
And you feel emotionally derailed and mute.
That’s me in a nutshell at this very moment.
I did make this little Amigurumi Snowman today.
Earlier when I was happy.
You want it?
You can have it.
Leave a comment and I’ll pick one randomly on Monday Dec. 13th and ship it out to you once I get your info.
That means you should receive it before Christmas.
Who doesn’t like receiving gifts in the mail.
Think of it as my Christmas present to you.
You follow me you get a chance to get that cute snowman.
Maybe say a little prayer for me while you’re commenting.
I need it.
I have been struggling lately.
My emotions an insane rollercoaster.
Each day, hour, minute, second has me on a different section of track.
Eyes shut tight.
Eyes wide open.
Two questions have been asked in love:
Am I fully willing to release my agenda, even if it means the death of a dream, and entrust myself to God’s agenda?
Am I fully willing to entrust myself to Brian and his leadership as God’s representative for my life path?
My sinful need for control wants to completely dismiss these challenges.
I want off this emotional rollercoaster.
My ultimate desire is to take these questions and fully examine my heart and where it lines up with God.
Brokenness always leads me to Christ.
So bring on the pain.
I want to grow in Him.
Above all else, guard your heart,
for it is the wellspring of life.
People choose to show emotions or hide them.
Regardless of what people do with them, emotions happen.
God has emotions and we were created in His image.
It makes sense that we would have them also.
“The Lord was grieved that he had made man on the earth and his heart was filled with pain.”
“I am a woman who is deeply troubled; I was pouring out my soul to the Lord.”
Hannah in 1 Samuel 1:15
“Be angry and do not sin.”
Paul in Ephesians 4:26
It’s okay to have emotions.
They are in the Bible and there is no rebuke for them.
Some emotions move us towards God and people.
These are constructive feelings.
Conversely, other emotions isolate us from God and people.
Those are destructive.
There are no right or wrong emotions.
Feelings should be examined and reflected upon to get to the core of what they are and why they are.
What are the motives behind them?
I have this association that heartache of any type is bad.
I steer away from it.
I bend over backwards to eliminate the threat of it.
I hide my emotions more often than not.
Trained myself not to go there.
Not to let the pain in or out.
Though it would burst forth from me anyway.
In the form of anger, bitterness and impatience.
Usually directed towards people who did not deserve it.
I have very few relationships where I fully let my guard down.
One very important relationship, where I did share openly and honestly in all matters of my heart, has abruptly ended.
My heart ached and I wanted to do anything and everything to get the relationship back.
At one point, I stopped and examined my heart and my motives.
I found something I did not like.
Something that I had never noticed previously.
I was depending on the relationship more than I was depending on Jesus.
I prayed for closure and repentance.
I prayed for my broken heart and my former friends heart to be healed.
I believe the Lord listened and answered my prayers.
At least on my end.
I realized that I had choices I needed to make.
I’m going to choose not to isolate and distance myself from God.
I’m going to choose to remain open and honest and lean on friends and fellow brothers and sisters in Christ.
I’m choosing a soft heart over a bitter heart.
There is no joy in a life that feels like it has no choice.
I choose to feel.
I choose to share those emotions.
I choose to believe that Jesus is my Lord and Savior.
It’s okay to feel pain.
I need to absorb it, reflect on it and grow from it.
Grow closer to Him.
I need some prayer for my attitude. I have been very confused lately on if our family is complete with 3 kids or if we should try for another. I love babies, always have, but babies grow up. Do I want more children? I don’t know. Brian says at this point in time he is done, but does not want to do anything permanent. We are young and he does not want to go down that road yet. I like to plan things and not knowing where we stand on this is driving me crazy. I want control. I know that we are not in control, that God is, but I still want to meddle. I have people telling me we will have more and people telling me that we should be done. I don’t want to listen to either side! I just want to be able to talk and pray about this with my husband. I want to know what the Lord thinks. I just haven’t been able to get there really. My stubborn attitude is in the way and it’s saying we are having another baby no matter what. That is not where I want to be on this. I want clarity, but I ultimately want to be at peace and have contentment with what I have. I need prayer to get me there, because I cannot do this on my own. I don’t want to have these little seeds of bitterness towards my husband on this issue turn into full out hatred and resentment. So that is what I need prayer on right now.
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