May Angel Star » Bipolar http://mayangelstar.com Tue, 07 Feb 2012 09:00:10 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3 Down… http://mayangelstar.com/2011/01/27/down/ http://mayangelstar.com/2011/01/27/down/#comments Fri, 28 Jan 2011 03:45:35 +0000 Veronica http://mayangelstar.com/?p=2406 I had every intention of writing a post and linking up with TRDC this week but I just don’t have it in me.It was a great prompt too, had me thinking all week.

BUT…..

I’m exhausted.

Mentally.

Physically.

Stick a fork in me, I’m done.

All I’ve managed to do this week is crochet and read and the bare minimum around the house.

Today I had to clean, we had cell group and I was making 2 lasagnas.

I somehow managed “getting on my hands and knees with a toothbrush” type cleaning.

I feel like I can barely move.

I don’t know what is wrong with me.

I feel depressed.

I could really use a lift in mood.

Desperately.

I hope it comes soon.

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I’m kind of scared at all the stuff I’ve been doing and taking on.

Is this normal or will I crash and burn?

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I should have known it wouldn’t last..

My calendar all neat with everyday bursting with activity.. Motivated Mom’s calendar checked off everyday, keeping the house up was a breeze. Laundry done, beds done, dinners planned and made. All cleaning responsibilities done. With as many as 5 kiddos running around my house. Couldn’t get enough sex, begging and instigating and wanting more and more.

And now I feel like doing nothing. Laundry piled up, dishes piled up, chinese ordered, baking done just so I could stuff my face and fulfill my duty to provide snack for small group, movies all day long, internet all day long, snacks and junk all day long, projects started and not finished, no chores done, can’t even imagine fulfilling the many social obligations going on this weekend..

Music washing over me, making me feel, on the verge of tears..

blah

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I have read reports of people on anti-convulsants used for bipolar that have the same symptoms at high dosages though.. It’s only happened once since being on 1200mg a day and it was super late for me, going on midnight…

I hope it doesn’t happen again!

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