May Angel Star » LCC http://mayangelstar.com Tue, 07 Feb 2012 09:00:10 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3 The Stand http://mayangelstar.com/2011/02/16/the-stand/ http://mayangelstar.com/2011/02/16/the-stand/#comments Wed, 16 Feb 2011 16:20:37 +0000 Veronica http://mayangelstar.com/?p=2434 Our hands intertwined, my large ivory dress, with scarlet trim barely allowing me in the seat as the band started playing. A crumpled damp tissue clenched in my fist, I dabbed my eyes for the hundredth time as I tried to keep the mascara in place. My heart was swollen, still overwhelmed by Brian’s declaration of love. I had cried in front of all of our family and friends, something I never ever would have voluntarily done. Tears were for the shower, when you were alone and the cascading water could drown out the sobs and wash them away down the drain never to be mentioned again. I had been caught off guard, not by the speech, I knew it was planned, what I did not know was the words that would come from deep within his heart, exposed for all to hear, intimate and crafted with care. Never spoken at our first wedding, generic and thrown together within a couple of weeks, filled with regret and sadness. This time, five years later, meaning so much more than our first vows ever would. Our faith came through with every word. God was the center of our marriage now and forever more, the renewal of our vows a testament to what He had done in our lives.  It was important to us, that our girls and our family and friends know our hearts and see the declaration of our souls back to Him, and our love to one another.

You stood before creation
Eternity within Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand
 
You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand
 

I sang, whisper soft, letting the words wash over me, through me. They penetrated my heart, the events of the day settling in, growing outward in the form of a smile. My hand enclosed in Brian’s, sweaty and familiar.

 
So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You
 
So I'll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand
 
So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You
 
So I'll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
 

I bolted out of my chair, eyes, scrunched shut, the tears streamed. My voice came out loud and strong from deep inside. Our hands no longer clasped, now outstretched upwards toward the heavens. I swayed, cradled by the music, the love I had for Him. He had given me the great gift of Brian I love this man and our two girls Precious beyond belief. I was absolutely in love, filled to the brim with emotions, they churned inside yet with peace and understanding. Thankfulness.

So I'll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours
 

Everyone, everything melted completely away.

Just me.

Just Him.

I believe.

Immense joy swelled within my heart.

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

This post was written for the prompt over at The Red Dress Club.

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Rick Tawney is going to be the part time cell group pastor and he was the speaker today. The problem wasn’t the message or the way it was delivered. The problem was that Alex woke up at 3am and was hitting me in the face with his little fist and whipping me with his spit cloth! He wasn’t interested in nursing. He was just interested in talking and being wide awake! I finally got up with him around 6:30am. Church had just the right environment for my brain to shut down and try to nod off into dream land. I was absolutely exhausted.

I was wondering why Brian kept nudging me, I thought he was being sweet and rubbing my leg because he loves me, he was just embarrassed by my lack of consciousness!

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