I don’t know how to describe it other than that.. Seeing the pictures of Kinley and thinking about how Katie is 10 months old, that 10 months ago I was giving birth to her and now she has grown so much.. It’s making me cry.. I want to be pregnant again.. I want a newborn.. The thought of waiting 2 more years before even trying to get pregnant again is weighing my heart down.. sigh.. Yep.. This blows… Maybe 3 years will be the gap because if I am feeling this way and Katie is only 10 months, I can’t imagine what I am going to feel the longer I have to wait….