That is how I feel.. This birthday hit me so very hard.. I try to be an upbeat and optimistic person. I try to see the bright side of things.. and for some reason I am stuck in this funk.. I feel so down.. Like everything is just too big or too far away. I can’t see any baby steps or mini accomplishments at all, just big looming projects that can’t possibly ever be accomplished.. Sigh.. I truly don’t like feeling this way, I feel like crying.. There are so many pent up emotions, just waiting to get out… An explosion is just around the corner, I can feel it.. Please pray for me, I think I need it..