I’ve been busy.. but not too busy LOL.. I have been LJ MIA though, except for the occasional comment and during the weekend I’m not on much. I’ve been doing projects around the house and I’m nowhere near finished. What I have really done is made a huge mess. There are clothes, toys, and just “stuff” everywhere.
Why do I start a project and before I finish it start a new project and then before I know it have ten different things going and not one accomplished???
Something for me to work on..
and I’ll put this in as a side note because I don’t really want to think about it.. I was/maybe still am dangerously close to the start of an eating disorder. My mind says what a good idea it would be, and I have been thinking about it and over analyzing it and even went so far as trying it, but felt so ridiculously bad about it that I couldn’t and just cried.. But I’m not sure if I was crying because I didn’t succeed or because I knew/know it is wrong and was glad I stopped myself… hm…. Or, should I confess that I probably have something that isn’t really classified as and eating disorder by professional standards, but is on the verge of being labeled as one, and that it is only a matter of time or an emotional bomb goes off before it goes into an entirely different direction. One that I could be quoted as saying, that is disgusting, and I could never do that in a million years..
And I can’t believe I’m even writing this in here, except for my quest with honesty… Praying Brian doesn’t read this, or maybe praying that he does…