It’s amazing how depressing my life can be when I disappear within myself.
Yesterday was all in all a great day. I had playgroup. Friends came over, the house was somewhat put together. I talked to Kelly for over an hour on the phone. Then to my Mom. Brian and I had great conversation, dinner was nice, we went to the library as a family, then to the pet store to snuggle with some puppies, then to wendy’s for some frosty’s.. Brianna fell asleep in the car so there was no prolonged bedtime routine, I read Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone, while Katie watched Elmo’s World. Then we snuggled until I was falling asleep. Tucked her in for the night and then went to bed myself (at 9:30!!!!), while Brian made up our budget for July. He even went out around 11pm to get cash out for the groceries and gas and pick up a couple of birthday cards.
Today, I have no motivation to get anything done. I just want to crawl in a hole and not come out. Just read and sleep.
I wonder why, was I socially overloaded yesterday??????
No clue…. I figure I really need to write in this thing. I get mad when I have a lot going on in my mind and throughout the day and I don’t write anything down, because those are the times when I want to look back on and I have no record of them 😦
Oh and a side note, Brian didn’t get an interview that he had been hoping for, and I didn’t do a great job in “being there for him” and I feel guilty about that. I just don’t react well in situations such as these. Sometimes I just wish I knew when to keep my mouth shut.
And there are some other things that bother me, like people I thought were “friends” boldly stating they didn’t trust me. I have feelings, and I know something as “silly” as internet land shouldn’t bother me, but sometimes it doesn, especially when you have “known” people for almost 5 years now..
I wish I could “buck up like a good little buckaroo”
I’m glad I can still amuse myself 😉