I’m feeling on the verge of an explosion and I’m not sure exactly why.. I seriously feel like a bunch of tears or coming my way… I seriously just want to go in the shower, because I haven’t yet today and feel completely gross and put some music on and cry under the water.. Katie is quietly watching “Katie” or in other words our Cayman DVD. Brandon is drinking some milk. Brianna and Conner are cleaning up downstairs.
I just talked to Brian and I feel all mad at the world.. I just feel like I’m about to jump out of my skin at any moment. Totally ready for today to be over and done with..
I don’t know.. I feel tired which makes no sense since I feel like going for a run at the same time and I don’t run LOL..
I don’t have much else to say because I just typed a novel to my friend kelly and now I feel kind of typed out..
I will say this though, why can’t I have these feelings during counseling. Why do I always feel fine and dandy on counseling days, except for last week when I was all irritable. I mean.. maybe if my counselor saw me when I was all depressed and or crazy feeling like this I would be getting somewhere..
I just spent the afternoon looking at past entries from each year and see such a pattern of my depression and craziness surrounding my quiet time on LJ..
I guess I should be happy that I have a record of it all..