I was just bawling my eyes out in counseling this morning about my “abandonment” issues. My being adopted really affected my life, not only in a positive way but also in a negative way. I grew up trying to fit everyone’s mold of who they wanted me to be because I so badly feared rejection and the pain that comes along with it. Now I’m trying to rebuild and find out exactly who I am and or who I want to become. I back away from relationships. I don’t fully connect so that there can never truly be a chance for me to get too hurt. I don’t allow myself to get hurt. But that is no a way to live my life. How can I be a godly woman/wife/mother/friend if I never fully connect to God/myself/my husband/my kids/my friends!
Just a reflection brought on by a friendship I adore!