We’re home

and I’m already sending Brianna away to my parents. She leaves for PA next week and will be gone for a week. Then she comes home for a couple of days and goes to sleep away camp for 2 nights..

I suck..  I suck because I’m glad she is leaving..

As much as I love her, and as helpful as she can be sometimes.. She can also be the most disrespectful little brat..

I need her to go away so I can get my shit together..

I’m tired. Alex doesn’t want to be put down..

I’m just done right now..

And I said I wasn’t going to use this stupid LJ to just vent.. and here I go..

My Dad is leaving work early to get Brianna..

I am attempting to go to Bible study without Alex.. I pumped today..

Brian said it would be good for me.. I believe him.. I know it will be..

I haven’t even showered yet..

I wish I could handle things better..

6 thoughts on “We’re home”

  1. *hugs*

    You do not suck. We all need a break sometimes. Being a mom is hard work. It can be so draining and your feelings are completely normal. Hang in there.

    On a totally selfish side note-I was just about to post about needing a mental health day…away from my kids before I lose it. I completely relate.


  2. I’m so sorry, ITA with Natasha, you do not suc, everyone needs a break. I totally relate as well.

    Did the package make it to you?


  3. Thanks… I think it’s mostly bothering me since we just got back from the family reunion, where I heard what a great mom I am, over and over.. And here I am back at home freaking out, and the fact that my dad was the one to rescue me is also not so much fun..

    Anyway, on a happier note.. I did get the package! Thank you so very much!! I absolutely love the bag and can’t wait to put it to good use!! And thank you for the extras!! The diaper is adorable!! Is that a fitted? I would need a cover right? I’m thinking of getting naked pics of him in just that diaper! Thank you so much for doing all of that for me!


  4. Thanks.. Lets run off together.. Manicures, pedicures, massages, shopping on someone elses dime and lots of yummy alcoholic beverages sound great! I could go to Grand Cayman again.. You up for it? 😉


  5. If only you knew how many times a day I thought about sending AJ to go live with Mark for a couple weeks or having a family member or friend who’d take him for a bit! It’s all dreams of course cause Mark would never take him and I don’t have any family to do so either but if I did or Mark would I’d totally do it. AJ is a great kid, I love him to pieces but it’s tiring to deal with him day in and day out. I am not a bad mother for needing a break and neither are you. If anything you are being a good mom for knowing when you need to take care of yourself! My therapist says this all the time.. so take advantage of this time and take care of Veronica! (((Hugs)))


  6. You don’t suck. You need a break. I totally get it, and it’s good that Brian gets it too! I hope you enjoy your Bible study and time to yourself! Get some rest and quiet! You are so not alone!


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